For over 8 years now I’ve been writing to my future husband. I would tell him how much I love him and how I’m waiting for him, and I think in in my 3rd entry I even planned out my entire wedding.

It has been fun to see how my entries have changed over the years. As my feelings and thoughts for my husband have changed and developed. It is fun to look back and read them and watch how I slowly start realizing what marriage is really more about or rather what it isn’t about. Often times I’ll find myself writing to him while doing everyday things like making my bed or cleaning the house. I’ll write to him and some how make the most boring chores sound like a romantic act of love. (I’ll have to remember my wording when someday I am married and trying to convince my husband to wash the dishes ) In all serious though, my “Dear Husband” journal has been the main motivator in my life to keep my heart and mind pure. Everything I’ve done with my past boyfriend is in there. Even my dreams of saving my first kiss for the day I get married. I’ve poured out my love, my hopes, and my devotion on the pages of this journal for someday my prince charming to read.

The funny part about it is that I get butterflies in my stomach thinking about giving my journal to him. No one has ever read it cover to cover. No guy has ever read the words it holds, only special ladies and even they only get to read 1 or 2.

I can’t wait to give this to my husband as a wedding present the day before our wedding. My only hope is that my husband will see the amount of commitment I’ll have for our marriage and the amount of love and loyalty I have toward him.

So wherever you are dear husband of mine, know that I love you and care for you deeply. I am waiting for you. Remember me in all you do, as I am remembering you.

Love,

Andee

Ever since my last post I can’t stop thinking of the forever kind of love. The kind of love that lasts through thick and thin, that even through the Devil’s schemes love wins because of God being centered in their lives and marriage. A kind of love that celebrates, multiple birthdays and 50th year anniversaries. A kind of love that lasts an eternity. The kind of love God had in mind when he created marriage.

It makes me happy to think of the art of marriage. Two people coming together making up for each other’s weaknesses. Working together as a team to bring out the best in each other. Though marriage does have it’s challenges, the lessons learned from them are precious enough to remind you of why you fell in love in the first place.

Marriage is:

Caring for someone the way God created you to care… being his vessel to one another

Loving each other no matter the costs

Sticking together through thick and thin

Waking up to someone and not noticing the tousled hair or bad breath but the joy you bring to each other

A life long journey with someone you’ll get to be with for eternity

Companionship, friendship, and partnership

Sleeping in on a Saturday morning just to enjoy each other’s company

Staying up late

Showing God to each other when faith is weak

Praying together

Worshiping God

A commitment

A challenge

A joy

Marriage is God’s way of using us to love on one another the way he loves us

It is so incredibly hard to believe that 20 years of my life have been lived. Though 20 isn’t that old, it is still hard to believe that the teenage years are technically over and the 20-somethings have begun.

Every year I set a new goal for something that I want to accomplish by the time I turn another year older. This year is a toughy. I’m not totally sure what I want it to be. There are so many choices out there that choosing one is like impossible. I know one huge desire of my heart is to find the man that God has picked for me to spend the rest of my life with. I find marriage incredibly beautiful. God’s intention for marriage, for each person to be the vessel of God to the other is just so breathtaking. I can’t wait for the day that I’m able to submit to my husband and love him with the love that God has given inside of me. To care for someone the way God designed it to be. AHH! The picture is so breathtaking and so amazing that I’m having a hard time finding the words to describe it. My heart burns with a love that God has given me to share with one person for the rest of my life. Though I’m only 20 years old, this passion is insanely real for me and I’m sure it will only grow as I get older.

So, I guess that my goal of my 20th year of life is to find that someone. Maybe not make the life long commitment but to at least figure out who that someone is, and enjoy getting to know him until God decides the time is right for us to get married.

I’m such a hopeless romantic! Oh well, I’m very certain that one day my prince will come and even if he isn’t on a white steed that God will ignite in us a love for each other that will last a life time when He decides the time is right.